Good Friday!

It's good friday today! What it really means to me is that it a holiday which I have to study all day long! What a shame! Too bad the examinations are just next week for me. I just have to endure through it. 守得云开见月明!

It's drizzling out there right now, and I 'brave' through the rain to buy something for myself. It's been a long time since I ever caught myself in the rain, and it really feels good for the rain to be pouring down on me. I even wish that the rain is heavier. Abit sadistic, I guess, but nonetheless i feel good. It seems to be able to wash away my fatigue. LOL...

EE2002 is really a terror. I used up almost all my brain cells today just to study the module. Right now I feel weak in my knees too when I think about the day spent tackling the subject. Luckily focus comes to me today pretty easily without much distractions. I was really caught by surprise when I realize I can study in air con room without much trouble.

Well, certainly things are different from the past semester of studying, especially with 9 modules to study this semester. All this while I haven't been able to cope with so many things in my mind. Memories from the past, events happening in the present and whatever that is going to come in the future. It happens from time to time, striking me when I'm the least vulnerable.

Yesterday was quite a memorable one for me. I don't really know why, but when my lecturer from my literature module said, "如果你不能原谅一件事，那就试着去体谅吧。"

What can I say? I'm dumbfounded. Somehow, I find it easier to start to forgive myself, to understand others, and to finally found something which I thought is lost forever. All of a sudden, I feel relieved, and felt a kind of energy which I haven't felt for a long long time. It's refreshing, and motivating. I got hold of a piece of me that has been shattered and missing for eons. At least now I know I'm really recovering.

面向阳光，勇往直前吧。